Thursday, July 29, 2021

Put it on a sticky note

 Many of you know I'm an occupational therapist. I am a purveyor of hope who sees people not for their brokenness but for their wholeness. For all that they've been, are currently, and will be. It is a sacred gift handed down to me by a group of amazing women clinicians who sought opportunities to teach the next generation of OTs. They taught me that OT is the imperfect blend of science and art. Of healing with your ears and heart along with your hands. They taught me the value of occupation. How function and adaptation can work together to propagate opportunity. They also taught me that mental health is physical health. And, to care for one's mental health gives you the ability to care for others. 

For the last 4 years, I have spent a good portion of my time teaching my students the value of valuing mental health. As OTs, it is the center, the very heart of who we are and what we do. You encounter mental health in every setting, every stage of life, in every culture, in every physical place and person we come into contact with. I have also tried to teach them that THEIR mental health matters. As care providers, we are guilty of not practicing what we preach. We talk a big game about protecting and nurturing mental health among our clients, but we do not nurture it among ourselves. We work ridiculous hours. We see patients on the weekends. We take care of our families and partners. We overwork, overschedule, and we do it because we are also taskmasters. We have been trained to do that. See a problem, work on fixing it, attack said problem until you've reached maximum functional outcomes, discharge. We do this over and over again to everyone and everything. Except, we don't do a great job of taking care of ourselves, and we are often pouring from a nearly empty cup. 

As the pandemic raged on, I felt the need to switch gears. I wanted my students to know that their mental health and well-being mattered to me. First and foremost. I wanted them to know that their performance concerning their worth was not ever going to be a question for me. I knew they were good people who deserved to be told regularly that they were cared for, intelligent, and, when necessary, gently but truthfully redirected to what needed to happen. The results, y'all, are amazing. Students giving their best efforts and often exceeding my expectations. They know I care about them. They know I am available to be that listening ear. That caring heart. If they get a bad grade, I don't think less of them, I see, and they see an opportunity for improvement. They also know that I don't do this for evaluation lauding but because if they are going to be healthy therapists, they have to fill their cup/put on their own oxygen mask first. Yes, they need to show proficiency, but as they say, many roads to Rome. I want them to not only pass the test, but I want them to know what they know and what they need to learn more about, and I need them to know that they don't have to know it all. Just enough for now, and trust that they'll get more later. And above all, I FREAKING CARE THAT THEY KNOW I'M PROUD OF THEM EVERY SINGLE DAY. 

We say a lot about the Millenial and Gen Z generations. Some of it is just cranky older people who can't imagine that people are different from them and that it is okay to be different. Some of it is genuine. What I know of them, they process differently. They need truth and honesty, but they also need to be nurtured.  Both are ok. The world will harden them all on its own. I don't need to do that as well. I hope my former and current students, and most definitely my future students know that I care about them, not for their grades or evaluations, but because we are in this boat together. As I walk about you, I see myself, and I'm reminded that my professors cared with a fierceness that helped me navigate all the ups and downs to come. 

So if you need to hear this today, I think you are smart. I think you are worthy of being where you are; it isn't a competition. Everything is figure-out-able! Go forth and be excellent to each other. You can put that on a sticky note! 

Tuesday, July 27, 2021

The last of the firsts

On August 9th, our teeny PK 5.0 will walk through the gates of his new childcare. Although not technically a pandemic baby, this is a child who has never been in the care of others. Yes, we had a nanny this entire last school year, but he and PK 4.0 were still in our home, under our supervision. He's the child I have spent the most time with before them going to school daily. I'm that mom that happily (sometimes with a heavy heart) got up and went to work because it is who I am and also fills my cup. The curate was the natural stay-at-home parent; this worked well for us. When seminary came, we needed help, and we were so fortunate to have that; Lucy's lessons are life lessons. The kids were a little older. And three of them were together with our dear friend that first year. I felt totally safe. Then the youngest two went to St. George's school, and it was so good, for them, for us. They were loved and nurtured. Miss Jeanne, Miss Carmel, Miss Melissa, Miss Gail, and Miss Hillary, you loved my babies, and I'm so thankful. Stephanie, you loved on sweet 4.0 and 5.0 for a year; I can't tell you how much my mama heart needed just a little more time. But now, it's time for him to be socialized with other kids and adults. He's a sweet and adventurous soul who is ready. I will cry after giving him a hug, and I will be sitting in the parking lot early on the first day of pick-up because those after-school hugs hit differently. He is still a baby, still our sweet little dude who made a dramatic entrance into this world. I know he will learn and play and form strong bonds with his caregivers. And I know it will make him a better person. And mama gets to work again. Mama gets to sit in an office that isn't in her bedroom and do the things that make her brain feel alive. I am so fortunate to have the ability to pay for quality, safe, and enriching care for our child. I know this will become routine. But for this next week, I'm gonna be a hot mess, so if you see me, just know I'm working my way through it. The last of the firsts... 

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