New Normal

The VIT is at his work-study. The kids are in bed. Our home is filled with silence. A dear friend encouraged me to lean into the silence. 

My mind and soul has become accustomed to LOUD as the only volume. Currently I'm trying to lean back into spirituality. It seems like that might be counter-intuitive to being a VIT-wife but this whole experience can be very difficult on one's faith. Learning to balance the demands of family, a seminarian's schedule, and still remaining a person yourself can really be draining. As the days pass towards the end of each month I'm trying to find ways to ensure my formation, my self-care, and ultimately my sanity stay intact. I love my family, I love my husband, but if I don't fill up my own cup I will be useless to them. 

One thing that I've come to love, my 3 hours of uninterrupted Sunday night time alone. Sure I miss the VIT but I also forgot how much I love to just veg and do my own thing. Instead of being super angry about the time I'm alone, I'm going to re-frame this and just be thankful for time alone. Time to look on Pinterest, Etsy, Amazon, etc. Time to watch Christmas in the Country shows, and do things that are silly and ridiculous. It will be my new time to be happy and joyful. If I want to clean I'll do that too. Maybe.