Lila Jean

Sometimes we have people in our lives that are bigger than life. They are our superheros. They give our hearts a reason to sing. They can do no wrong in the imaginary world that they inhabit in our brains and in our hearts. My aunt was that person for me. She was a curly-wild haired woman who made bee pollen smoothies, took me to my first health-foods co-op, and made me feel alive. As an adult and a mother myself, I know she was not perfect. But in those moments, she was perfect to me. She was and still is bigger than life. 

When we bought our new car for some reason I felt my Aunt Lila's presence. She would have likely been horrified about my choice but also, would have seen the joy in my eyes and in the eyes of my girls and would have been supportive. Our new car is 40 years young come August. She is loud, a bit temperamental, and gives me life. It's not the best car on the market but it makes me feel free. 

This morning, as I rolled the windows down, opened the sunroof, and began driving I could feel my spirit lift. As I roared down the freeway, I could feel that bigger than life feeling. Lila has been gone for almost 24 years. I was only 14 when she passed. But today, in Austin, TX, I got to feel a little bit of her again. Everyday I drive that car, even when it's hot, I will feel a little bit of my aunt. And I believe she will be whispering, go, be free sweet girl. Sassy, classy, and a little bit kick-assy. #goals #tridentgum #purplekitchen