Waiting, Esperando, Attendre, Inatteso

We are in the great season of waiting. This season is one of great excitement but also a lot of nerves and worry because we do not know what lies ahead. We know not where we are going or what we are going to be asked to do. To be faithful and trust in this time of "lasts while we are here" is a season that feels much like parenthood.

Today as I was dropping off kids to school I had 3 very quiet little girls in the way back. Normally they are quite chatty. They weren't singing to the music, they weren't talking, they were visibly pensive and deep in thought. Now, if you know my kids, they are loud AF. Like all the time, so much that I often have to send them outside or to their den of madness so that I can quiet my own mind. I turned down the music and gently asked, "what are you ladies thinking about?" I waited, what felt like a long time, and there was just a slow roll of sighs. Our oldest said "Mama, I'm just thinking with this cold weather, I miss cold weather but I'll be sad if we have to leave Texas." Our 2nd chimed in that she was talking with her teacher about how we might be moving and she just got silent. Our 3rd, and most robust little love said, "I will miss this place." Of course the littlest sister was singing 5 Little Ducks! She's always been the levity we need.

They are right, the deepness of how this all is gonna shake out and what that means is settled in. Anticipation of what might be is equally deep. I miss the steadiness of the VIT's middler year. Settled in with some experience behind us and still a good piece left in front to navigate and enjoy. Now that we have 110 days (WTAF?!?!?!) left of seminary. We have 110 days of what has been a 7 year journey. A journey that took us all way outside our comfort zones and geographically away from what had been our home for almost a decade. We live in constant gratefulness for the opportunity and pray we have the fortitude to continue on in whatever direction and path is laid before us.

So little wee kids, we will wait. With great anticipation to see what lies ahead and we will look thoughtfully and lovingly at what has brought us to this point.