I saw a meme recently that said we should normalize saying "I love you" to our friends. I have had those words and that sentiment on my mind ever since. I miss my friends. I'm so thankful for the technology that allows me to remain in contact with them. However it is not the same. I miss being able to feel another human being as I give them a hug. I miss being able to see the smile that forms when you see your friend walking towards you. I miss the connection with humans (aside from the other 6 that live in the vicarage).
Tomorrow I will undergo a necessary surgery. This is somewhat unexpected but by all accounts should be routine and uneventful. However, as 2020 has shown us, nothing is guaranteed. So while I have your attention, I Freaking Love You So Much. If you read this, know that you are loved. That someone in the deep part of Central Texas sends you loving thoughts and longs for you to be happy. Some may say I'm being morbid (the Curate often gets irritated with my comfort with death) but I think we never know what can happen (and when you work in the medical field you know what can happen) and so before I check myself in tomorrow, I just wanted to say what I know. I love you. Hopefully I'll be happily (likely somewhat drug induced) reporting from my room at the hospital tomorrow. But if I'm not, know that you are deeply loved. I choose to make it weird. You were warned. Wash your hands, wear your mask, and tell your friends you love them.
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